I think I’m writing this more for myself than to provide advice, but I when I started this blog I wanted it to be more than just tips. I wanted to share the honest and real things that I am feeling about this process. I have been flipping back and forth between traditional and self-publishing for months. My manuscript is not close to being ready, and maybe I’m getting a bit ahead of myself, but this is on my mind today.
I’ve watched Youtube videos, read copious amounts of blogs/books, read every question that had come up in my writing groups and asked for clarification when necessary. With all this information I still find myself indecisive.
At first, I thought I would inevitably self-publish because no publisher is going to pick up a book about vampires. Plus, royalties are higher, and I have complete control over my book. I can pretty much do everything I could with a traditional publisher, except put my book on shelves at brick and mortar stores. With the way of technology that’s not such a big deal. Other than that, it sounds perfect, right?
Well, now I’m not so sure. For me, there is something about Traditional Publishing that seems so official. Like it’s a token of being able to write because someone wants to sell my book. Part of me is excited about the thought of having my books in stores and having a company support my efforts. Then the other part is absolutely terrified. I’m afraid that this is just another endeavor that I won’t be good enough for and despite all my hard work, I will fail.
Then I started thinking about it, and I have never felt this passionate about something. Hell, I just completed a 74,000-word manuscript and I’m fighting with myself to let it rest until I can start tearing it apart on March 20th. It’s something I am not willing to let fail. Once it’s been rewritten, 5…10…15 times (however many it takes), I need to send it out to publishers.
I will get rejections. I promise you that, but I will not let them break me. These rejections are vital and will have areas that I can improve on, and I will use them to better my work and myself as a writer.
How else will I improve? I’m not completely set on Traditional publishing as my final choice, but I know it is a necessary one. I need to know what the industry wants to see. There is no better way to grow than to have your weaknesses exposed and then overcome them.
Either way I choose, I never want to release my work until it is the best it can be. Until I’ve read it so many times that I am confident in every word on the page.
I hope you enjoyed this more personal blog and I look forward to seeing your work in the future. As always don’t forget to follow my page to keep up on the progress of The Siren Project and any writing tips I find along the way. If you have a topic, you would like me to cover on a future blog feel free to drop a comment below, message me on my contact me page or tweet me @shauna_philp.